Day 3: NOT A DIET!

I keep having to remind myself that I'm not on a diet. Every diet I ever tried failed, and I refuse to fail at this, so i have to remember that this time is different. I've battled my weight my whole life, and I can honestly say that this is the first time I've actually felt like I was going to win.

Today I ran into an old friend: quesadillas. I didn't eat any, but as I was making and dicing one for 14-month-old Joshua, it smelled awesome! However, I was very proud of myself when I finished putting the leftovers in a baggie and I hadn't taken a single bite. Nobody would have known... Joshua certainly wasn't going to narc on me, so it gave me great satisfaction that I didn't cave.

Alright, here's some more photographic evidence. This is the wonderful dinner I made for Donnie and I tonight. The shrimp and scallop scampi was awesome, and I just love fresh sauteed asparagus! Granted I would have made dishes similar to this before - though I'll admit scampi is a first for me - but I always paired things things like this with outlandish helpings of pasta. I found out tonight that I don't have to carbo-load to feel full. I'm only three days into this, but I'm learning a lot. I suppose I knew some of it before, but I sure wasn't accepting it.

I find myself feeling a little guilty tonight because my mom had to get some really terrible news before I took this step. She's been worried about my sisters and I for years, and until now we all just blew it off saying, "Yeah, yeah, we'll lose the weight someday." The time is finally now, Mom. I'm sorry we waited so long.